Weird things I do for no Reason #1

 

   

I'm a weird person and that is a known fact. I've been weird since I was a baby to this very moment I'm typing this. Though, as I grow up, I'll probably become less weird.

Being weird is well - a weird thing. Weirdness is frowned upon and looks like a decease to a lot of people. But thankfully I grew up on books and shows where the protagonist is as weird as can be! And I learnt a valuable lesson in them. Being "normal" is absolutely BORING!

I'm weird because I'm limited edition! And this limited edition is an ambiverted hopeless romantic bookworm who simultaneously has a very short attention span and is still stuck on shows meant for eight year olds!

I HAVE felt a bit self-conscious about not liking the same things everyone else does. At some point, I think everyone has. Honestly, I don't think anyone is completely 'normal'.

As a student, I have to sit down most of my day. And I really don't like sitting down in one place. Sitting in multiple places in different positions is fine. I can do that! But you have to still in a certain manner, eyes on the teacher at all times - and that is - well - a bit torturous.

And being an avid daydreamer - my body had to do something about this situation. So I became sort of an expert on zoning out when a person is talking WITHOUT actually LOOKING like I'm zoning out. I can keep perfect eye contact and EVERYTHING.

Though sometimes it can get out of hand and I do it when I'm TRYING to focus but - eh, it's a cool ability.

To deal with the lack of movement - my body needed something more. 

See, I'm a writer. And often, I need to sit down to write. When I'm at home, you'll find me on the floor typing most of the time. 

One, because my desk is most probably completely cluttered up.

And Two, the floor is a large large space. 

It also makes a bit uncomfortable if you are typing there, making you change positions multiple times which I like doing. 

Also, to write good, you have to read good. And to read good, you also might have to stay in one place. I'll change positions multiple times, 30% because I LIKE to change and 70% because I truly feel uncomfortable if I sit in one way for too long. 

In class, if I'm sitting too long in school, it truly hurts my butt! (or maybe because we just sit on giant slabs of wood and that isn't the comfiest)

Changing positions doesn't necessarily mean going upsidedown. It might be, I'll change how my chin is leaning on my hand. I'll cross my legs and uncross them multiple times. I change my seating on my giant slab of wood undeserving called a 'bench' and where my legs go. If I'm leaning, sitting straight or slouching multiple times. 

And I normally do it without thinking.

I used to think EVERYONE did that but then I physically saw a few kids go through class in the same position for the entirety of the 45 minutes. That shook me. 

Another thing I do is I bang my knees with each other a lot. When I'm sitting down.

Not like hard, they just sorta bounce off each other - it's like tapping my foot but ME style. It's like clapping but with my legs and no sound. I often don't really even realise I'm doing it. I actually didn't realise I did such a thing till my mom pointed it out to me a YEAR AGO. 

We'll refer to it as the 'knee thing'

It quickens sometimes if I'm excited or nervous, but other than my mom (who always stops my leg if I'm doing that and we're talking to someone important), nobody really even notices it either. 

Except this one time.

In Catechism, classes were normal. I was bored, doodling on my text as our teacher lectured us. I had removed my shoes and they were under my chair (cause it's hot and nearly EVERYONE'S shoes were off) and I started doing the leg clapping thing again (I don't realise it).

When, suddenly, the teacher stops and stares at me. Which catches me off guard because I'm used to being invisible. She keeps on staring and I stare back because I'm honestly unsure of WHY she's staring at me. And because SHE's staring at me, EVERYONE's staring at me. My knee thing stops automatically cause I hate being the centre of attention. 

She stares at me deadpan and asks, "Is this how you act in school class?"

I stare back, unsure of what she meant. 

She asks the question again and looks at my legs. I then understood she meant the knee thing. I was confused but embarrassed. And because I, again, hate being in the centre of attention mumbled a no. (Which was lie, I always do it at school. It's just that people have too much common sense to care) I stop doing it, keeping an eye on my knee and putting my shoes back on. 

I always thought that incident was odd - why did it bother her so much?

And that question bothered me a lot. I never really did like that teacher much. 

Anyway, back to the topic. I do that thing a lot without realising. And if you're sitting down for a lot of time, you do the knee thing for a lot of time. And because I don't know I'm doing it, when I get up m legs ache and I dunno why! 

Sometimes my legs are tired and they keeping on doing it anyway, I don't really know why. 

Anyway, there'll be a part two because this post is getting a bit too long and I've got a bunch more to go! 

FROM YOUR FULL-TIME WEIRDO

N.M SIRIUS

SIRIUS OUT!